Ok just letting you guys know some days I have to go to work early so you can expect a later night post, and some days I go to work in the afternoons so you can expect a morning post. 

Today's step was to read chapter 2 and boy was it a rich chapter and also some work to get through.  One thing I learned that was an eye opener was that I love the seeds part of the growth cycle.  At the school where I worked, my favorite part of my job was the anticipation as I would offer suggestions or ideas to children about things they could do in the future if it would interest them.  I would sometimes say "you could be an artist" or "you could be a hair designer" and I love wondering about how all those ideas might be planted and grow into something amazing for the child.  That's why I love watching Bob Harper on the Biggest Loser (true confessions).  One year he said "I love day one, I love day one." and I totally get that because I love day one too.  He plants the seeds of good fitness and health and nurtures them and then sends the contestants out into the world to live their lives. 

I'm usually like the second caterpillar in the chapter wishing and resentful and I/that needs to change.  In fact, another of the many things I was thinking after reading this chapter was what is the difference between positive and negative people.  I realized that negative, controlling people (I would know because I have been both on the giving and receiving end) take away the offerings of other people.  When I was negative I would not be taking suggestions from others on what they had to offer me.  When I have been around negative people I have personally experienced giving and giving and giving and giving and not having my offerings acknowledged or accepted.  Since I have also been thinking about work now as "what do I have to offer?" this has totally changed my perspective on being/working with negative people and engaging in negative people stuff.  I do not want to be the person to negate anyone's offering, and as far as working with negative people I think there probably is a time and it must vary depending on the circumstances when you have to say, "I don't wish anything bad for you and I hope that things come into your life that help you out of this.

That's where God is so good because I have been realizing recently as a lot of good things have happened for me that I am guilty of showing contempt for God's kindness for others Romans 2:4 and I never want to do that again.  God has brought so many many good things into my life to get me to a place where I can draw closer to Him.  

Questions from "Day's Activity"
As far as national averages go I'm a little under target I think because I had one main job and lots of other little side jobs.  I learned however I've been spending way too many hours of my week on work (more than 60 per week).  Nothing against working hard but I think there is a way to make less amount of time more profitable because my return vs. investment is shocking low.  (Reminder: Not my employer's fault.)  The changes in my work were all for reasons I did.  I signed up for several jobs and stayed on even though I recognized they were not meeting my financial needs.  I need to do a better job placing a value on what my time is really worth with what I uniquely have to offer and not just accepting a wage in the name of "security".  I've been looking for security in the wrong places.  I need to find security in who God is, and who He says I am, and what I was created to do.   

That's all for today!  Come back tomorrow for Day 4!